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purposes with our two patches at an early stage。  Everything grew 

wrong from the first to last; and if my father's manures intensified 

nothing else; they certainly intensified the Primordial Curse。  The 

peas were eaten in the night before they were three inches high; the 

beans bore nothing but blight; the only apparent result of a 

spraying of the potatoes was to develop a PENCHANT in the cat for 

being ill indoors; the cucumber frames were damaged by the 

catapulting of boys going down the lane at the back; and all your 

cucumbers were mysteriously embittered。  That lane with its 

occasional passers…by did much to wreck the intensive scheme; 

because my father always stopped work and went indoors if any one 

watched him。  His special manure was apt to arouse a troublesome 

spirit of inquiry in hardy natures。



In digging his rows and shaping his patches he neglected the guiding 

string and trusted to his eye altogether too much; and the 

consequent obliquity and the various wind…breaks and scare…crows he 

erected; and particularly an irrigation contrivance he began and 

never finished by which everything was to be watered at once by 

means of pieces of gutter from the roof and outhouses of Number 2; 

and a large and particularly obstinate clump of elder…bushes in the 

abolished hedge that he had failed to destroy entirely either by axe 

or by fire; combined to give the gardens under intensive culture a 

singularly desolate and disorderly appearance。  He took steps 

towards the diversion of our house drain under the influence of the 

Sewage Utilisation Society; but happily he stopped in time。  He 

hardly completed any of the operations he began; something else 

became more urgent or simply he tired; a considerable area of the 

Number 2 territory was never even dug up。



In the end the affair irritated him beyond endurance。  Never was a 

man less horticulturally…minded。  The clamour of these vegetables he 

had launched into the world for his service and assistance; wore out 

his patience。  He would walk into the garden the happiest of men 

after a day or so of disregard; talking to me of history perhaps or 

social organisation; or summarising some book he had read。  He 

talked to me of anything that interested him; regardless of my 

limitations。  Then he would begin to note the growth of the weeds。  

〃This won't do;〃 he would say and pull up a handful。



More weeding would follow and the talk would become fragmentary。  

His hands would become earthy; his nails black; weeds would snap off 

in his careless grip; leaving the roots behind。  The world would 

darken。  He would look at his fingers with disgusted astonishment。  

〃CURSE these weeds!〃 he would say from his heart。  His discourse was 

at an end。



I have memories; too; of his sudden unexpected charges into the 

tranquillity of the house; his hands and clothes intensively 

enriched。  He would come in like a whirlwind。  〃This damned stuff 

all over me and the Agricultural Chemistry Class at six!  Bah!  

AAAAAAH!〃



My mother would never learn not to attempt to break him of swearing 

on such occasions。  She would remain standing a little stiffly in 

the scullery refusing to assist him to the adjectival towel he 

sought。



〃If you say such things〃



He would dance with rage and hurl the soap about。  〃The towel!〃 he 

would cry; flicking suds from big fingers in every direction; 〃the 

towel! I'll let the blithering class slide if you don't give me the 

towel!  I'll give up everything; I tell youeverything!〃 。 。 。



At last with the failure of the lettuces came the breaking point。  I 

was in the little arbour learning Latin irregular verbs when it 

happened。  I can see him still; his peculiar tenor voice still 

echoes in my brain; shouting his opinion of intensive culture for 

all the world to hear; and slashing away at that abominable mockery 

of a crop with a hoe。  We had tied them up with bast only a week or 

so before; and now half were rotten and half had shot up into tall 

slender growths。  He had the hoe in both hands and slogged。  Great 

wipes he made; and at each stroke he said; 〃Take that!〃



The air was thick with flying fragments of abortive salad。  It was a 

fantastic massacre。  It was the French Revolution of that cold 

tyranny; the vindictive overthrow of the pampered vegetable 

aristocrats。  After he had assuaged his passion upon them; he turned 

for other prey; he kicked holes in two of our noblest marrows; 

flicked off the heads of half a row of artichokes; and shied the hoe 

with a splendid smash into the cucumber frame。  Something of the awe 

of that moment returns to me as I write of it。



Well; my boy;〃 he said; approaching with an expression of beneficent 

happiness; 〃I've done with gardening。  Let's go for a walk like 

reasonable beings。  I've had enough of this〃his face was convulsed 

for an instant with bitter resentment〃  Pandering to cabbages。〃





4



That afternoon's walk sticks in my memory for many reasons。  One is 

that we went further than I had ever been before; far beyond Keston 

and nearly to Seven…oaks; coming back by train from Dunton Green; 

and the other is that my father as he went along talked about 

himself; not so much to me as to himself; and about life and what he 

had done with it。  He monologued so that at times he produced an 

effect of weird world…forgetfulness。  I listened puzzled; and at 

that time not upderstanding many things that afterwards became plain 

to me。  It is only in recent years that I have discovered the pathos 

of that monologue; how friendless my father was and uncompanioned in 

his thoughts and feelings; and what a hunger he may have felt for 

the sympathy of the undeveloped youngster who trotted by his side。



〃I'm no gardener;〃 he said; 〃I'm no anything。  Why the devil did I 

start gardening?



〃I suppose man was created to mind a garden。 。 。  But the Fall let 

us out of that!  What was I created for?  God! what was I created 

for? 。 。 。



〃Slaves to matter!  Minding inanimate things!  It doesn't suit me; 

you know。  I've got no hands and no patience。  I've mucked about 

with life。  Mucked about with life。〃  He suddenly addressed himself 

to me; and for an instant I started like an eavesdropper discovered。  

〃Whatever you do; boy; whatever you do; make a Plan。  Make a good 

Plan and stick to it。  Find out what life is aboutI never have

and set yourself to do whatever you ought to do。  I admit it's a 

puzzle。 。 。 。



〃Those damned houses have been the curse of my life。  Stucco white 

elephants!  Beastly cracked stucco with stains of greenblack and 

green。  Conferva and soot。 。 。 。  Property; they are! 。 。 。  Beware 

of Things; Dick; beware of Things!  Before you know where you are 

you are waiting on them and minding them。  They'll eat your life up。  

Eat up your hours and your blood and energy!  When those houses came 

to me; I ought to have sold themor fled the country。  I ought to 

have cleared out。  Sarcophagieaters of men!  Oh! the hours and 

days of work; the nights of anxiety those vile houses have cost me!  

The painting!  It worked up my arms; it got all over me。  I stank of 

it。  It made me ill。  It isn't livingit's minding。 。 。 。



〃Property's the curse of life。  Property!  Ugh!  Look at this 

country all cut up into silly little parallelograms; look at all 

those villas we passed just now and those potato patches and that 

tarred shanty and the hedge!  Somebody's minding every bit of it 

like a dog tied to a cart's tail。  Patching it and bothering about 

it。  Bothering!  Yapping at every passer…by。  Look at that notice…

board!  One rotten worried little beast wants to keep us other 

rotten little beasts off HIS patch;God knows why!  Look at the 

weeds in it。  Look at the mended fence! 。 。 。  There's no property 

worth having; Dick; but money。  That's only good to spend。  All 

these things。  Human souls buried under a cartload of blithering 

rubbish。 。 。 。



〃I'm not a fool; Dick。  I have qualities; imagination; a sort of go。  

I ought to have made a better thing of life。



〃I'm sure I could have done things。  Only the old people pulled my 

leg。  They started me wrong。  They never started me at all。  I only 

began to find out what life was like when I was nearly forty。



〃If I'd gone to a university; if I'd had any sort of sound training; 

if I hadn't slipped into the haphazard places that came easiest。 。 。 。



〃Nobody warned me。  Nobody。  It isn't a world we live in; Dick; it's 

a cascade of accidents; it's a chaos exasperated by policemen!  YOU 

be warned in time; Dick。  You stick to a plan。  Don't wait for any 

one to show you the way。  Nobody will。  There isn't a way till you 

make one。  Get education; get a good education。  Fight your way to 

the top。  It's your only chance。  I've watched you。  You'll do no 

good at digging and property minding。

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