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of the new French and German field guns。  Wrassleton joined in and a 

little drunken shrivelled Oxford don of some sort with a black…

splashed shirt front who presently silenced them all by the 

immensity and particularity of his knowledge of field artillery。  

Then the talk drifted to Sedan and the effect of dead horses upon 

drinking…water; which brought Wrassleton and Weston Massinghay into 

a dispute of great vigour and emphasis。  〃The trouble in South 

Africa;〃 said Weston Massinghay; 〃wasn't that we didn't boil our 

water。  It was that we didn't boil our men。  The Boers drank the 

same stuff we did。  THEY didn't get dysentery。〃



That argument went on for some time。  I was attacked across the 

table by a man named Burshort about my Endowment of Motherhood 

schemes; but in the gaps of that debate I could still hear Weston 

Massinghay at intervals repeat in a rather thickened voice: 〃THEY 

didn't get dysentery。〃



I think Evesham went early。  The rest of us clustered more and more 

closely towards the drier end of the room; the table was pushed 

along; and the area beneath the extinguished conflagration abandoned 

to a tinkling; splashing company of pots and pans and bowls and 

baths。  Everybody was now disposed to be hilarious and noisy; to say 

startling and aggressive things; we must have sounded a queer 

clamour to a listener in the next room。  The devil inspired them to 

begin baiting me。  〃Ours isn't the Tory party any more;〃 said 

Burshort。  〃Remington has made it the Obstetric Party。〃



〃That's good!〃 said Weston Massinghay; with all his teeth gleaming; 

〃I shall use that against you in the House!〃



〃I shall denounce you for abusing private confidences if you do;〃 

said Tarvrille。



〃Remington wants us to give up launching Dreadnoughts and launch 

babies instead;〃 Burshort urged。  〃For the price of one Dreadnought〃



The little shrivelled don who had been omniscient about guns joined 

in the baiting; and displayed himself a venomous creature。  

Something in his eyes told me he knew Isabel and hated me for it。  

〃Love and fine thinking;〃 he began; a little thickly; and knocking 

over a wine…glass with a too easy gesture。  〃Love and fine thinking。  

Two things don't go together。  No philosophy worth a damn ever came 

out of excesses of love。  Salt Lake CityPiggottAgAgapemone 

againno works to matter。〃



Everybody laughed。



〃Got to rec'nise these facts;〃 said my assailant。  〃Love and fine 

think'n pretty phraseattractive。  Suitable for p'litical 

dec'rations。  Postcard; Christmas; gilt lets; in a wreath of white 

flow's。  Not oth'wise valu'ble。〃



I made some remark; I forget what; but he overbore me。



Real things we want are HateHate and COARSE think'n。  I b'long to 

the school of Mrs。 F's Aunt〃



〃What?〃 said some one; intent。



〃In 'Little Dorrit;'〃 explained Tarvrille; 〃go on!〃



〃Hate a fool;〃 said my assailant。



Tarvrille glanced at me。  I smiled to conceal the loss of my temper。



〃Hate;〃 said the little man; emphasising his point with a clumsy 

fist。  〃Hate's the driving force。  What's m'rality?hate of rotten 

goings on。  What's patriotism?hate of int'loping foreigners。  

What's Radicalism?hate of lords。  What's Toryism?hate of 

disturbance。  It's all hatehate from top to bottom。  Hate of a 

mess。  Remington owned it the other day; said he hated a mu'll。  

There you are!  If you couldn't get hate into an election; damn it 

(hic) people wou'n't poll。  Poll for love!no' me!〃



He paused; but before any one could speak he had resumed。



〃Then this about fine thinking。  Like going into a bear pit armed 

with a tagletalgenttalgent galv'nometer。  Like going to fight a 

mad dog with Shasepear and the Bible。  Fine thinkingwhat we want 

is the thickes' thinking we can get。  Thinking that stands up alone。  

Taf Reform means work for all; thassort of thing。〃



The gentleman from Cambridge paused。  〃YOU a flag!〃 he said。  〃I'd 

as soon go to ba'ell und' wet tissue paper!〃



My best answer on the spur of the moment was:



〃The Japanese did。〃  Which was absurd。



I went on to some other reply; I forget exactly what; and the talk 

of the whole table drew round me。  It was an extraordinary 

revelation to me。  Every one was unusually careless and outspoken; 

and it was amazing how manifestly they echoed the feeling of this 

old Tory spokesman。  They were quite friendly to me; they regarded 

me and the BLUE WEEKLY as valuable party assets for Toryism; but it 

was clear they attached no more importance to what were my realities 

than they did to the remarkable therapeutic claims of Mrs。 Eddy。  

They were flushed and amused; perhaps they went a little too far in 

their resolves to draw me; but they left the impression on my mind 

of men irrevocably set upon narrow and cynical views of political 

life。  For them the political struggle was a game; whose counters 

were human hate and human credulity; their real aim was just every 

one's aim; the preservation of the class and way of living to which 

their lives were attuned。  They did not know how tired I was; how 

exhausted mentally and morally; nor how cruel their convergent 

attack on me chanced to be。  But my temper gave way; I became tart 

and fierce; perhaps my replies were a trifle absurd; and Tarvrille; 

with that quick eye and sympathy of his; came to the rescue。  Then 

for a time I sat silent and drank port wine while the others talked。  

The disorder of the room; the still dripping ceiling; the noise; the 

displaced ties and crumpled shirts of my companions; jarred on my 

tormented nerves。 。 。 。 



It was long past midnight when we dispersed。  I remember Tarvrille 

coming with me into the hall; and then suggesting we should go 

upstairs to see the damage。  A manservant carried up two flickering 

candles for us。  One end of the room was gutted; curtains; hangings; 

several chairs and tables were completely burnt; the panelling was 

scorched and warped; three smashed windows made the candles flare 

and gutter; and some scraps of broken china still lay on the puddled 

floor。



As we surveyed this; Lady Tarvrille appeared; back from some party; 

a slender; white…cloaked; satin…footed figure with amazed blue eyes 

beneath her golden hair。  I remember how stupidly we laughed at her 

surprise。







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I parted from Panmure at the corner of Aldington Street; and went my 

way alone。  But I did not go home; I turned westward and walked for 

a long way; and then struck northward aimlessly。  I was too 

miserable to go to my house。



I wandered about that night like a man who has discovered his Gods 

are dead。  I can look back now detached yet sympathetic upon that 

wild confusion of moods and impulses; and by it I think I can 

understand; oh! half the wrongdoing and blundering in the world。



I do not feel now the logical force of the process that must have 

convinced me then that I had made my sacrifice and spent my strength 

in vain。  At no time had I been under any illusion that the Tory 

party had higher ideals than any other party; yet it came to me like 

a thing newly discovered that the men I had to work with had for the 

most part no such dreams; no sense of any collective purpose; no 

atom of the faith I held。  They were just as immediately intent upon 

personal ends; just as limited by habits of thought; as the men in 

any other group or party。  Perhaps I had slipped unawares for a time 

into the delusions of a party manbut I do not think so。



No; it was the mood of profound despondency that had followed upon 

the abrupt cessation of my familiar intercourse with Isabel; that 

gave this fact that had always been present in my mind its quality 

of devastating revelation。  It seemed as though I had never seen 

before nor suspected the stupendous gap between the chaotic aims; 

the routine; the conventional acquiescences; the vulgarisations of 

the personal life; and that clearly conscious development and 

service of a collective thought and purpose at which my efforts 

aimed。  I had thought them but a little way apart; and now I saw 

they were separated by all the distance between earth and heaven。  I 

saw now in myself and every one around me; a concentration upon 

interests close at hand; an inability to detach oneself from the 

provocations; tendernesses; instinctive hates; dumb lusts and shy 

timidities that touched one at every point; and; save for rare 

exalted moments; a regardlessness of broader aims and remoter 

possibilities that made the white passion of statecraft seem as 

unearthly and irrelevant to human life as the story an astronomer 

will tell; half proven but altogether incredible; of habitable 

planets and answering intelligences; suns' distances uncounted 

across the deep。  It seemed to me I had aspired too high and thought 

too far; had mocked my own littleness by presumption; had

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